A Week Of Roller Coaster Ride

The past week has been a emotional roller coaster ride for me. We had a massive fight. Being accused of something that I did not do or even aware of not only sent me up the roof but also broke my heart big time.

I tried to play it cool. Packed my things up and leave. I couldn't cry and didn't cry for the next 2 days. But when everything somehow settled in my head, tears rolled down without effort.

Bus rides were stained with tear drops, work got affected. I was literally just a hanger. No spirit. By Wednesday, I have concluded that we are definitely over and there isn't any chance of us getting back together. Not only did it worsen my mood, I was close to giving up on work and just sit and rot at home. I couldn't care less about what's happening around me. I wanted desperately to be alone and be quiet.

So yes, typical girl thing, cry and sleep. Binge eating and getting drunk. Not even close. I did cry crazy stupid but the eating and getting drunk part do not exist. Overwhelmed with physical tiredness and emotional strains. I just fall fast asleep as early as I can (beauty sleep??) NOT!

Instead I dream about him :( A repeating scence of us fighting and me leaving.

Sleeping early does not seem to make much difference does it? If I still have dreams? This is just so stupid! I think of myself as being the stupidest person whenever I get involved in a relationship. I do not know why, but loving someone wholeheartedly, supporting him and respecting his interest, is the best thing a partner can do isn't it? I supposed the romantic Leo isn't what most people are looking for.

Anyways, it is now a brand new week. We both reconciled and working on the relationship again. Honest truth - I miss him way too much to be apart from him. Though it has been a short 6 months together, its so comfortable being with him. Lazy days together are my favourite. The TV and him together on the couch, such a bliss.

Let's hope that this would be the last fight we would have for a long time to come. Fighting sure isn't fun at all. Puffy eyes never compliment any girl. =(

While we are only in the 2nd week of January, let's hope that the new year will bring in new hopes and superb results!